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My Songs

Stay

 

I cannot write a word

Though there's so much to say

I feel my life's been blurred

All I can do is pray

That you will stay

You will stay

I have been on a train

Forcing myself to leave

The faces in the rain

Blur by no time to grieve

I hate I've caused you pain

I hope that you rise from your tears

I wish I could explain

Why I leave, but expect

That you will stay

You will stay

You will stay

Stay

Stay

Stay

Alien

 

What am I distracted from?

What do I fear?

Why am I attracted to

Those who tickle my ears?

But when I stand face to face

With myself

And I study every flaw and grace

Inch by inch

Trace by trace

I know I'm not from the human race

Am I an alien?

Am I an alien?

Am I an alien?

Am I an alien?

I don't think I belong here

People seem afraid of me

My own mother shrinks in fear

Is this how it's supposed to be?

But when I stand face to face

With myself

And I study every flaw and grace

Inch by inch

Trace by trace 

I know I have come from outer space

Am I an alien?

Am I an alien?

Am I an alien?

Am I an alien?

What do you think?

What do you think?

What do you think?

What do you think?

What do you think about your life?

Don't quote some book you've read

No holy man whose dead

I wanna hear what's in your own head

Are you an alien?

Are you an alien?

Are you an alien?

Are you an alien?

 

Opposing Suns

 

The fight that's going on within

Is a hopeless battle that neither side can win

Fools think they've made a truce

That the healing's came

Yet the hatred stays the same

Consumes our world in flames

I am waiting to kiss the world that stabbed my side

That nailed me to a tree and laughed until I died

Know that when you hate me, you only hate yourself

And will die all alone angry at yourself

"Why do you want to rule the world?"

"Cause you're too busy drinking with the girls!"

"I hate my brother!

He's a hypocrite

A selfish piece of shit

Why can't he see it?!"

I am waiting to kiss the world that stabbed my side

That nailed me to a tree and laughed until I died

Know that when you hate me you only hate yourself

And will die all alone angry at yourself

But we all are one

When you look in the mirror

You're looking at your brother

Do you still hate me brother?

We come from the same red-headed mother

Love is war so why should we bother?

Spill your guts or prepare for a slaughter

I am waiting to kiss the world that stabbed my side

That nailed me to a tree and laughed until I died

Know that when you judge me you only judge yourself

And will die all alone condemning yourself

Ecstasy

 

The mantle fell I saw you bare

And nothing in this world compares

Now all I do is dream of you

And all the things I'll do

She dressed in red, she dressed in black

I thought I'd had a heart attack

She laid me down upon her bed

To rest my troubled head

Rest my eyes in the dark of night

Rest my eyes in the dark of night

I fall

I fall

I fall

Rest my eyes in the dark of night

Rest my eyes in the dark of night

I fall

I fall

I fall

She said her love's too much for me

I swear to God I must agree

She let me down so gracefully

But now my eyes can see

Rest my eyes in the dark of night

Rest my eyes in the dark of night

I fall

I fall

I fall

Rest my eyes in the dark of night

Rest my eyes in the dark of night

I fall

I fall

I fall

Security

 

Cover me and keep me warm

Fight for me, keep me free from harm

Hold my hand, make me feel strong

I'll do anything for you even if it's wrong

Just give me 

Security

Security

Suck the life right out of me

Just give me

Security

Smother me, but keep me free

Steal from me, invade my privacy 

I'll give you my son to die in your war

I am numb, I can't feel anymore

But, at least, I have

Security

Security

Suck the life right out of me

Just give me 

Security

 

But when the lights go out

When the lights go out

What will you do then?

But when the lights go out

When the lights go out

How will you plug in?

But when the lights go out in this big city

And everything caves in

When the lights go out and they will

How will you live then?

What will I do now that I can't watch TV

Watch all my haunting fears break through Security 

Watch the jobs fail will soon run out of food

This ain't no movie I can't turn off the tube

When the lights go out

When the lights go out

What will you do then?

But when the lights go out

When the lights go out

How will you plug in?

But when the lights go out in this big city

And everything caves in

When the lights go out right now

How will you live then?

What will I do now that I don't have a phone?

How will I call you if I'm feeling all alone?

What if something happens and I can't dial 911,

My two legs topple down and I can't even run?

"Look to the Suns

Look to the Suns"

Everything will be just fine

If you can learn to look inside

"Look to the Suns

You are security

Forest of Distractions

I don't know how I got here

I don't know how to leave

But I've heard that the power is hidden in these trees

Have I been deceived?

Lost, lost, lost

Let me be lost, lost, lost

Let me be lost, lost, lost

I wanna be lost

The tree that I'm seeing

It does not exist,

But I want to admire its beauty and strength

I cannot resist

But where are the two trees,

That stand by the gate,

The real trees that take a true blue eye to spot?

I guess those can wait

Lost, lost, lost

Let me be lost, lost, lost

Let me be lost, lost, lost

I'd rather be lost

Lost, lost, lost

Let me be lost, lost, lost

Let me be lost, lost, lost

I'd rather be lost

 

God's Time

 

I asked Time to be my friend

I wanted to see my wife and kid again

I told him all I do is bitch and whine

I said, "Hey, can you turn back time?"

And he said, "You'll just lose them again

It's time to get rid of that pain my friend

Get on your feet, cause soon,

I'm gonna watch you die."

If we could turn back time

We could resurrect the dead

But only for a little while

Just to watch them die again

Time will never be your friend

He will fight you to the bitter end

And when you die

He'll laugh, 'n' say goodbye, all with a grin

You can't blame everything on Time

Blame yourself and things just might rewind,

But in the present

So Time can watch you die

But happy, fuck Time!

If we could turn back time

We could resurrect the dead

But only for a little while

Just to watch them die again

But I have faith in something

And soon that something will come

Well I ain't talking about Jesus

I'm talking about us

We are God

The Devil is Time

It's time that we opened our eyes

We watch him steal

We watch him kill

He bruised our heal

But we'll crush his head

If we could turn back time

Then we could resurrect the dead

But only for a little while

Just to watch them die again

But I have faith in something 

And soon that something will come

Well I ain't talking about Jesus

I'm talking about us

War

All that I can sing about is war

There's nothing left inside of me no more

Was it the system that made me hide away my soul

And trade emotion for self-control?

All that I can fill inside is rage 

I feel like I am locked inside a cage

Should I unleash "Me"

And burn this system down

And watch all the walls fall to the ground?

Oh I don't think I have a choice

So I'm gonna raise my voice

I think I can heal

If I make some noise

All that I can sing about is war 

This indignation is oozing out

My every pore

And I refuse to close my eyes in fear

For an illusion of peace, as our world disappears

Oh I don't think I have a choice

So I'm gonna raise my voice

I think I can heal

If I make some noise

Oh I don't think I have a choice

So I'm gonna raise my voice

I think I can heal

If I make some noise

 

Oh As the world watched on in terror

As our lives fell forever

Did you too (two) fall together

Waiting to rise again?

 

Oh I don't think I have a choice

So I'm gonna raise my voice

I think I can heal

If I make some noise

Oh I don't think I have a choice

So I'm gonna raise my voice

I think I can heal

If I make some noise

 

Hard Ground

Love is something I once knew

But as my body grew

Love did not grow too

A boot stomped my fertile soil

No matter how they toiled

The seeds would not take root

You showed me love

But taught me fear

A God above

That you could not fully hear

Through screams of hate

And graveside tears

And dropping bombs

I guess the message was not clear

It must have been hard

For you to feel...

Love is something I once knew

But as my body grew

Love did not grow too

A boot stomped my fertile soil

No matter how they toiled

The seeds would not take root

Late nights spent

Hearing you play

Piano keys

Well that was one such way

That I could feel

What was in your heart

That you push down

So till this day I play

Cause that is my way

That I can feel...

Love is something a once knew

But as my body grew

Love did not grow too

A boot stomped my fertile soil

No matter how they toiled

The seeds would not take root

 

I'm not some psychopathic fool

I'm not Satan's heartless tool

This is not the way

You'll never feel any better

You've grown a shell

That can withstand any weather

You block out the rain

And with it all the pain

But ain't it a shame

That when you block the rain

You block the Sun

Just the same?

Love us something I once knew

But as my body grew

Love did not grow too

A boot stomped my fertile soil

No matter how I toil

The seeds will not take root

 

No One Escapes the Sun

Blood will be a daily sight

In the age when there's no longer night

The Sun raised high

No shadows anymore

Blood will be a daily sight

In the age when there's no longer night

The Sun raised high

No shadows anymore

The reaper's came and burned the weeds

Gathered all of the fine seed

No speck of chaff can be found on his floor

Daddy's gone and mommy's wronged

God sent orders from his throne

The children scream in terror

Feed on tears

 

Blood will be a daily sight 

In the age when there's no longer night

The Sun raised high

No shadows anymore

Blood will be a daily sight

In the age when there's no longer night

The Sun raised high

No shadows anymore

No shadows anymore

No shadows anymore

On the Road to Nowhere

 

I am my only enemy

This war is in my heart

Between true love and enmity

And it's tearing me apart

So I chose to fight a cold war

And built up many walls

Till I could not feel anymore

And so these walls must fall

 

Fight 

To unite

To learn

To become

Fearless

To open

To love everyone

 

I am my only enemy

This war is in my heart

Against cruel corporate entities

But I don't know where to start

So I dropped out of society

And I learned to live alone

But alone is all I'd ever be

So I walked my way back home

 

Fight

To unite

To learn

To become

Fearless

To open

To love everyone

 

To love everyone

To love everyone

But in truth the hardest one to love

Is myself

Cause I'm the only one who knows

The worst things I've done

The worst things I've done 

The worst things I've done

 

I can't run

 

I feel neither love nor hate

Can't move I've reached a stalemate

I can't face the pain

But I can't keep playing

I'm on the road to nowhere

I'm on the road to nowhere

 

I am my only enemy

This war is in my heart

Against seeing reality

So I can know my part

In healing our society 

And breaking down its walls

But if I don't find sobriety

I'll be the one who falls

 

Fight

To unite

To learn

To become

Fearless

To open

To love everyone

 

To love everyone

To love everyone

But in truth the hardest one to love

Is myself

Cause I'm the only one who knows

The worst things I've done

 

I'm on the road to nowhere

Can't read the signs that show where

I should go to open

So I don't know where I am going

Allow your heart to open

Fearlessly to open

Your heart knows where it's going

Your path in life it is showing

To love everyone

To love everyone

To love everyone

To love everyone

 

Worldwide Veneer

 

Young and so beautiful

Yet so full of death and doom and spiders

Witches and demons and liars

Her eyes

They can melt my bones

They take me so 

Far, far away from home

But somehow it's my home

 

And time

It is a bitch

It steals and kills

And throws us in a ditch

But life

What is the point?

Let's smoke a joint

And say, "Just fuck it all!"

 

Why do you want to live

If death is all that life can give?

 

The world

It has a veneer

It is so unclear

What's going on

At first

We see beauty

Love and harmony

Stability 

Oh but then

Here comes the pain

Here comes disease

Here come the slain

Oh and more

Here comes distrust 

Here come the lies

No right and just

 

There's no justice

 

Why do you want to live

If death is all this life can give?

Why work another day

If your debt can never be paid?

 

So I'll watch you just fade away

I'll watch you grow old and gray

Always being afraid

To put you in the ground one day

To just walk away

And let all those years

Just be in vain

All our love

Turned to pain

The day I feared

Finally came

My empty shell

Is made to dwell

In love's dark shadow

 

Young and so beautiful

Yet so full of death and doom and spiders

Like a mirror

To the world

Our eyes

Are burning with fire

And melting down

Every wall disguising

The truth that

We are one

And time

Does not exist

It can't resist

Your faith in me

Our life

We built together

Will never end

Our love's eternity

 

The Golden Age

 

Where is the secret potion?

Where the strange spiritual cure?

Where is your brilliant notion

That makes us clean and pure?

 

Is it deep inside?

In heaven above?

Buried deep in the sea

Far, far away from me?

 

I will mix the potion myself

Painstakingly proportion it just so

Drink it down to my life and health

Someday, somehow

 

When will this Golden Age come?

When will all things be made new?

Will it be in my grandchild's day?

In ten years, or in just a few?

 

Will we never die?

Will the dead arise?

Will there be food for all?

Will we really never cry?

 

I will mix the potion myself

Painstakingly proportion it just so

Drink it down to my life and health

Someday, somehow 

 

I will mix the potion myself

Painstakingly proportion it just so

Drink it down to my life and health

Right here and now

Today

 

You 

Me

We

Are free

 

You speak like you're a prophet

You tell men how to behave

Yet the dust that's on your Bible

Is enough to cover your grave

Ignorance and hatred

Apocalyptic fear

From the TV to the pulpit

Is spread from ear to ear

But I know the end is coming

And it's not the end of sin

Because the cross you wear around your neck

Says you'd torture him again

It's not the end of the earth

It's the end of what we know

And seeing you know nothing

It's time you fucking go

Go

Go

Go 

Fucking go!

Christendom's Playground

 

See the gothic buildings

Their foundations are blood and fear

In their gallows 

Their grapes are yeilding

A wine of poison

Drank by millions

Minds are shrinking 

Pockets bulging

Men in power

Make us sour

Their eyes are open

Yet they follow blindly

This doomsday death march

Heading southward

 

I don't know

Where we go

But I've been told

That there's a road

That few find

You've got to have the right heart and mind

But I don't know

I've lost my faith

My joy

My hope

This mind control

Has left me jaded

 

See the light our vision!

It's a cult that won the throne

They preach worldwide

What they doubt inside

"Be a wolf inside sheep's clothing."

"God's on our side"

"God bless our country"

But I know God can't be on all sides 

They preach love

While they declare war

Well if love is murder

What have we become?

 

Well I don't know

Where we go

But I've been told

That there's a road

That few find

You've got to have the right heart and mind

But I don't know

I've lost my faith

My joy

My hope

This mind control has left me jaded...

 

Home

 

I'm letting go

I'm moving on

But your face is haunting me

Oh girl, but I love being free

 

This wasn't in the cards

My heart is far too hard

It's been so god damned long

Since I've been home

 

Time will heal

All your wounds

If you

Forget your love

 

You ride free

Beautifully

I can't get you out of my head all day

And you don't have to go away

 

This wasn't in the cards

My heart is far too hard

It's been so God damned long

Since I've been home

 

I will heal 

All your wounds

If you cry

For our love

 

Is this real

Or will you slap my face

And wake me to my pain

That love's a dream for me?

My heart's in chains!

So you can't see

What's going on inside of me

Burning

Yearning 

For you

 

It's been so long

Since I've been home

But I can see home

In your eyes...

Eyes...

 

It's no mirror

It's the truth

Face to face

Me and you

There's no hiding

There's no sin

Inside you girl

Skin to skin

I rode the River

To the Sea

I tamed the monster

That was killing me

The Mystery's finished

It's been done

The fight is over

And we won (One)

Oh... oh Only One

Oh... oh Only One

 

Judas Christ

 

Your men divide with their idols of thought

And they distract from what God really bought

With blood and tears and the sacrifice of souls

Spare me the sight I want to go

 

Woah... I want to go

Woah... I'm throwing off your load

 

I don't wanna be your next sacrificial lamb

Lead to the death by the hands of lawless man

Your cup is filled right? There's nothing left to pay!

I'll be the goat who takes the sin away

 

Woah... I want to go

Woah... I'm throwing off your load

Woah... walk down my road

Ahh... Do not sell your soul

Walk down my road

Oh... It's time to go

 

Judah! Judas! Save us!

Please don't kill yourself again!

Joseph! Jesus! Spare us!

Don't let Satan enter in again!

 

Woah... I want to go

Woah... I'm throwing off your load

Woah... Walk down my road

Ahhh... Do not sell your soul

 

The Only Way is Up

 

My buddy watches as his hope goes down the drain

And I sit and cry as I finally realize I'm insane

It's not our fault, but really no one is to blame

So let's sit together and suffer in our shame

 

Saying...

I'm here for you.

Cause I'm down with you

We're in the same boat

Feels like it's sinking 

On down...

 

Cause when you're this far down

The only way is up

And when your cup is empty

You can only fill it up

I've tried and I've tried and it seems

That I can't succeed

So let's sit together

That's all I really need

 

We both face eviction from our houses, from our homes

And we just sit and wait, cause all our money has been blown

In this world things seem so cut and dry

So let's sit together I feel I need a good cry

 

Saying...

I'm here for you

Cause I'm down with you

We're in the same boat

Feels like it's sinking 

On down...

 

Cause when you're this far down

The only way is up

And when your cup is empty

You can only fill it up

I've tried and I've tried and it seems

That I can't succeed

So let's sit together

That's all I really need

I know

I've never been this low

The only way is up

The only thing to do 

Is stand up

The only way is up

 

Cause when you're this far down

The only way is up

And when your cup is empty

You can only fill it up

I've tried and I've tried and it seems

That I can't succeed

So let's sit together

That's all I really need

 

Viewpoint of a Ghost

 

We joined

Rebelling in the feeding trough of pigs

Shaking hands to make the people sick

Hating politics

We died

And you cannot kill us again

Speaking truth is now a sin

But we will rise again

 

You can't see me

You can't hear me

You can't touch me

But you'll feel me

And you'll fear me 

You will hate me

You will fight me

But I'll win

 

Yeah 

Yeah

Yeah

 

His reign

Counterfeited once again

Daniel to the lion's den

But the prince will rise and win

Oh yeah

 

You can't see me

You can't hear me 

You can't touch me

But you'll feel me

And you'll fear me

You will hate me

You will fight me

But I'll win

 

Yeah

Yeah

Remember me

Remember me

Remember me

Woah

 

You can't see me

You can't hear me

You can't touch me

But you'll feel me

And you'll fear me

You will hate me

You will fight me 

But I'll win

 

Yeah

Yeah

Remember me

Remember me

Remember me 

 

Rolly Trolly

 

Let's eat something new

Free radicals we become

Function not according to plan

Reality let's bend

 

Become the wind

My friend

The ashes of your brain

Blow along this rocky plain

 

The rain descends

Up rise the trolls

So close to earth

Yet akin to stars

Silly sprites

They know our love

Is not from above

 

Become the wind

My friend

The ashes of your brain

You'll never be the same

 

Roll

Like a troll

On parole

Just like cudzu

Even fire can't kill you

You laugh

While you cry

Nothing can kill your high

You sleep

On the dry earth

You know that mother 

Will quench your thirst

 

Become the wind

My friends

The ashes of your brain

You arise a raging flame

 

Petty John

 

A dark and blowing hole in the ground

Petty John don't know what he's found

Another world lies below

He's found a gate

He has found this hole

 

And he crawls inside

There's no need to hide

He has got to know

What's down below

And he finds

 

A world where there

Is neither night nor day

A world where time has

Fled away

 

Into the darkness he descends

With silence he makes amends

The darkness gazes all around 

But he cries

I'll throw your kingdom down

 

And he crawls inside

There's no need to hide

He has got to know

What's down below

And he finds

 

A world where there

Is neither night nor day

A world where time has

Fled away

 

Petty John

Petty John

Petty John

Petty John 

Petty John

Petty John

Oh

Petty John

Petty John

Petty John

Petty John

Petty John

Petty John

Petty John

 

Three-Fold Cord

 

We walked up a hill

To a table fit for a king

So eager to fill our stomachs full

Of emptiness and pain

Why did you have to go?

Well I wanted you to follow

But you're such a mama's boy

That you hid under her dress

 

Yet a three-fold cord

Is pulling at my heart

Telling me

To finish what I start

Light and dark

Viewed as incomplete

Manifests 

Humanity's defeat

 

Why won't you wake from sleep?

You could sleep through an airplane crash

But we need your Gift for Change

For the Starhawk to rise from the Ash

Wake now

We cannot wait

This is no time to procrastinate

Guess I'll have to get your goat

As only anger

Has ever made you wake

 

Still a three-fold cord

Is pulling at my heart

Telling me

To finish what I start

Light and dark

Viewed as incomplete

Manifests

Humanity's defeat

 

Lights out it's time for bed

Just relax now and clear your mind

From all the worries running through your head

Now in the dark things are so hard to find

Where did I put my wine

That I thought would drown my sorrows?

Guess I'll have to lay awake

There'll be hell to pay tomorrow

Again

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